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AURELIUS



The gym lay beneath Mayfair like a secret chapel, a sanctum sunk into white stone and discretion. It was called Aurelius, a name chosen, one suspected, less for the Roman emperor than for the suggestion of gold without ostentation. The ceilings were high enough to allow humility to breathe; the mirrors were cut not to compliment but to instruct. Marble veined like old parchment cooled the soles of the feet, and the air carried the indistinct, subtle scent of eucalyptus and money well behaved.

 

Aurelius was not a place for improvement. It was a place for maintenance. The men who came here did not seek transformation; they sought confirmation.

 

Two young men were already in motion.

 

Sebastian Ashcombe, Viscount Mereford, ran with the bored precision of one who had been taught from boyhood that even exertion must never look like pleading. His hair—dark, civilised—refused to sweat in public. The silk-cotton vest he wore had been made in Naples and altered in Savile Row, the sort of garment that advocated athleticism without ever confessing to effort. His running shoes, scandalously understated, were the colour of old bone.

 

He ran as though history were watching and had expectations. Which, in his case, it did.

 

Beside him, adjusting the incline on a neighbouring treadmill, was Theodore “Theo” Langford-Smythe, heir presumptive to a banking fortune so old it had once funded wars and now funded quiescence. Theo’s build was slighter, his elegance more scholastic. He wore black—always black—not as rebellion but as a philosophical position. His vest bore no logo. Logos were for people who wished to be recognised.

 

Theo believed admission was a form of moral failure, second only to enthusiasm.

 

At a polite distance stood their butlers: Pembroke for Sebastian, a man whose eyebrows alone could convey a memorandum; and Huxley for Theo, taller, greyer, and so composed he seemed less employed than eternal. They hovered with chilled Voss bottles wrapped in linen, towels folded with the tenderness usually reserved for newborns or treaties.

 

Sebastian increased the speed and said, conversationally, as though discussing the weather in Provence, “Have you ever noticed, Theo, that Cédric Klapisch does not make films about people meeting, but about people colliding politely?”

 

It was an opening gambit of the sort perfected at Oxford: apparently casual, actually diagnostic.

 

Theo smiled, though his breathing remained steady. “Ah. L’Auberge espagnole as social physics. Erasmus students as subatomic particles.”

“And therefore unstable,” Sebastian added contemplatively, “decay is built into the premise.”

Theo slanted his head. “Yes. They arrive believing Europe will enlarge them. Instead it dissolves them. Which is far more honest.”

“Europe,” Sebastian said, “is always honest after the fact. Before that, it prefers theory.”

“Precisely,” Sebastian replied, “everyone thinks it’s about youth and chaos and Spain. It isn’t. It’s about borrowed spheres. Temporary identities. The terror of discovering that you are provisional.”

 

Provisional, like governments. Like marriages. Like convictions held before thirty.

 

Theo reached for his towel, nodded once to Huxley, dabbed his forehead. 

 

“And that, of course, is why we liked it when we were insufferably young. We thought ourselves permanent.”

“Youth,” Sebastian said, “mistakes duration for depth.”

 

They ran on. The mirrors multiplied them into a small dynasty of exertion.

 

“What I find rarely remarked upon,” Sebastian continued, “is that Pot Luck is not European optimism. It is administrative melancholy. Forms. Passports. Bureaucracy as fate.”

“Kafka,” Theo said, “but with better wine and inferior despair.”

“And worse consequences,” Sebastian replied, “the tragedy is not oppression, but compliance. Everyone fills out the forms willingly.”

 

Theo laughed, a low, dry sound.

 

“Trust you to romanticise paperwork.”

“I’m serious,” Sebastian said, “the flat is not a home. It’s a holding pen. They orbit one another not out of love, but because the walls are thin and the rent is shared. It’s accidental intimacy. The most candid kind.”

“Accidental,” Theo mused, “and therefore intolerable to people who believe intimacy should be curated.”

 

Theo adjusted the incline again, punishing himself marginally.

 

“That explains Russian Dolls, then. Everyone thinks it’s about growing up. It’s actually about discovering that one’s emotional furniture no longer fits the room.”

“Which is the true cruelty of adulthood,” Sebastian said, “you keep the furniture, lose the room, and are blamed for the inconvenience.”

Sebastian glanced sideways, approvingly. “Yes. The sequel is not temporal—it’s spatial. Paris instead of Barcelona. Maturity instead of exuberance. Same souls. Less noise.”

“Less noise,” Theo said, “but more echo. Which is infinitely harder to ignore.”

 

Pembroke stepped forward, handed Sebastian a bottle. Sebastian accepted it without breaking stride, murmured thanks as one might to gravity. 

 

Theo went on, “What strikes me about Les Poupées russes is the cruelty of its tenderness. Klapisch allows his characters to succeed just enough to feel the embarrassment of having wanted more.”

“Success,” Sebastian replied, “is merely desire that has learned to apologise for itself.”

 

They ran in silence for a moment, the machines humming like discreet confidants. And in that silence, oddly, other areas seemed to open.

 

A Parisian apartment, for instance. Tall windows. Late light. Somewhere between takes, an actor sat alone, listening to the hum of his own refrigerator as though it were dialogue. He had been instructed not to perform loneliness, only to withstand it. Klapisch had said very little to him—only that loneliness was already articulate and did not require emphasis. The actor grasped, with a shiver of humility, that he was not playing a role but lending his body to an abeyance. Cinema, here, was not spectacle but moral listening.

 

Listening, in Klapisch’s cinema, was a radical act—almost impolite in a culture addicted to declaration.

 

Back in the gym, Sebastian slowed his pace, stepped off with aristocratic finality. Pembroke was already there, towel presented like a sacrament.

 

“And then,” Sebastian said, wiping his hands, “there is Paris.” 

Theo exhaled. “Yes. The film everyone pretends is an ensemble piece.”

“It’s a city contemplating its own mortality,” Sebastian said, “the characters are symptoms. The heart patient merely gives Paris permission to be afraid.”

Theo nodded. “A city on the examination table. Streets as veins. Cafés as capillaries. Everyone rushing, no one listening.”

“Listening,” Sebastian said softly, “would require Paris to accept limits. Cities, like empires, find this undignified.”

 

Another expanse. Another life. The actress from stared at her phone’s darkened screen, her own face faintly reflected. She thought of how radical it had been to play a woman whose interior life was not redeemed—no grand ambition, no cinematic salvation. Klapisch had trusted stillness. He had trusted her face to remain unresolved. She understood then that he filmed the unfinished not as failure, but as dignity.

 

Sebastian slowed further, leaning against the machine. “What people miss,” he said, “is that Paris is the first time Klapisch admits time will win.”

“Which is why Back to Burgundy feels so restrained,” Theo replied, “no city this time. Just land.”

“Land,” Sebastian said, “has never believed in progress. It merely tolerates it.”

 

They moved to the free weights, iron cold and judicial. Theo lay back on the bench; Sebastian stood above him, attentive but unintrusive.

 

“Ah, Burgundy,” Sebastian said, “heritage without nostalgia. Siblings circling a vineyard like reluctant heirs to a crown they did not ask for.”

Theo lifted, controlled, precise. “It’s a film about succession where the vines understand continuity better than the people. The land is patient. Humans are seasonal.”

“And therefore melodramatic,” Sebastian added, “we experience entropy personally.”

 

On another set, years later or earlier—time was uncooperative in Klapisch’s world—actors moved through time, the colours of it. Between scenes, one of them felt something uncanny: as though the future itself were watching, taking notes. Klapisch spoke not of narrative, but of obligation. You are not acting for now, he said mildly. You are acting for what comes after us. The actor understood then that this was not cinema as memory, but cinema as stewardship.

 

Stewardship, Theo reflected, was merely aristocracy stripped of ardour and forced into ethics.

 

Huxley handed Theo his water. Theo drank, reflective. “And then comes Deux moi. Which everyone calls small.”

“Only because loneliness is quieter than tragedy,” Sebastian replied.

“And because it refuses to announce itself,” Theo added, “loneliness has dreadful manners.”

 

They re-racked the weights.

 

Someone, Somewhere,” Theo said, “is the most aristocratic of his films.”

Sebastian raised an eyebrow. “Do explain.”

“It’s about parallel lives never touching,” Theo said, “which is essentially our entire class structure rendered tender instead of brutal.”

Sebastian laughed softly. “You are suggesting we live in a Klapisch film?”

“I am suggesting,” Theo said, standing now, closer, “that we are always one misaddressed email away from familiarity.”

 

Around them, Aurelius continued its muted ballet of privilege. The mirrors observed without dictum, as though aware that judgement would be redundant.

 

“You realise,” Theo added, “that Klapisch is doing what Michelangelo did.”

Sebastian paused. “Removing excess?”

“Exactly,” Theo said, “Michelangelo carved tension between flesh and eternity. Klapisch carves it between people and time. He doesn’t impose vision—he excavates it.”

Sebastian considered this. “A modern Michelangelo of the visual medium,” he said, “working not in marble, but in glances.”

Pembroke cleared his throat, guardedly. “My lord. Your meeting.”

Sebastian nodded, then looked at Theo. “Another day?”

Theo picked up his coat, impeccably cut. “Always.”

 

As they walked out—two young men shaped by affluence, reflection, and a cinema that refused easy answers—the mirrors behind them multiplied their absence. Somewhere between Parisian kitchens, Burgundian soil, lonely apartments, and future-facing sets, time seemed to halt, uncertain whether it was being remembered or anticipated.

 


 

Sebastian: Mayfair to Kensington

 

The Bentley accepted Sebastian without comment, as it accepted everything: authority, inheritance, fatigue disguised as taste. The door closed with that particular sound—less a fuss than an agreement—and immediately the world softened. Leather. Walnut. Taciturnity trained to obey.

 

Mayfair released him slowly, as it always did, like a host who believes too much haste is vulgar. Brook Street, then Davies. The geometry of wealth held steady: clean lines, doors that did not explain themselves, façades that inferred permanence without ever promising it. Sebastian watched it all pass as though from a great height, though the car barely moved.

 

Klapisch had taught him—though no one would ever say such a thing aloud—that places were not settings but arguments.

 

Berkeley Square drifted by, trees dark and disciplined, their winter branches presenting patience. He thought of L’Auberge espagnole again—not the flat, not the jokes, but the terror beneath it: the moment when a place stops welcoming you and begins asking what you intend to become. Sebastian had first felt that terror not in Spain, but here, years ago, when Mayfair had stopped feeling like a birthright and started feeling like a test he had never revised for.

 

The car turned west. Park Lane opened itself like a thesis statement: Hyde Park to one side, the hotels to the other—nature methodical, luxury impersonating hospitality. He remembered Russian Dolls then, not as a sequel but as a reckoning. The realisation that one does not outgrow one’s earlier selves; one merely relocates them. They follow. They sit muted in the back of the mind, like old furniture kept for reasons one no longer remembers.

 

The lights along the park smeared smoothly across the glass. Manoeuvre without drama. He thought of Paris, of the way Klapisch had filmed the city not as a romance but as a body—ageing, self-conscious, suddenly aware of its own breath. Sebastian understood now why it had unsettled him so deeply. It was the first film that had allowed him to imagine his own life not as a trajectory but as a circulation. No climax. No redemption. Just movement and cessation.

 

At Knightsbridge, the shops were already closing, their windows still lit, performing relevance for no one. Consumption as afterimage. He recalled Back to Burgundy, the vineyard, the siblings circling something older than their ambitions. The land had not needed them. That had been the shock. Sebastian had spent his life believing that buttressing implied necessity. Klapisch had suggested otherwise: that continuity was indifferent to intention.

 

The car slid into Kensington, broader streets, softer certainty. Houses that pretended to domesticity while practising prudence. Somewhere behind him, Mayfair folded back into itself, already forgetting him.

 

By the time the Bentley stopped, Sebastian understood why those films had mattered. They had given him acquiescence to stop mistaking arrival for meaning. They had named the unobtrusive verity he had never dared articulate: that his life, for all its polish, was comprised of crossings—corridors between radiuses he would never fully inhabit.

 

Klapisch had not judged him for this. That was the mercy.

 


 

Theo: Under the Shower

 

The water came down hard at first, unnegotiated, striking Theo’s shoulders with a blunt uprightness he preferred to mirrors. Steam gathered quickly, blurring the lines of the domain, reducing it to heat and sound. He stood still, feet planted, letting the temperature settle into something bearable.

 

Water ran over the collarbones first, traced the shallow hollows he had never filled out, no matter how carefully he trained. His body had always resisted exhibition. It was built for endurance rather than declaration. The water followed that logic, sliding down his chest, over the ribs—each one briefly announced, then forgotten—before collecting at the waist and moving on.

 

Theo closed his eyes.

 

Someone, Somewhere had undone him not because it was sad, but because it refused to insist that sadness required resolution. Under the spray, he felt the same truth play itself out physically. The body, like the film, did not ask to be saved. It asked only to be acknowledged.

 

Water gathered at the small of his back, then ran lower, indifferent, democratic. His muscles loosened, the tautness he carried without vanity finally conceding. He thought of the characters in Deux moi, how they existed inches apart, connected by nothing more vivid than proximity. How radical that had felt. To be seen not as incomplete, but as analogous.

 

Klapisch had trusted the body to think.

 

Theo’s thighs bore the convincing, livid marks of effort—training not for beauty, but for inconspicuousness. The water traced them without interest, as it traced everything else. It did not flatter. It did not accuse. He remembered an actor’s stillness in Paris, the way a man could simply sit, breathe, and allow the city’s clamour to pass through him without interpretation. That, Theo comprehended now, had been the lesson: that presence was not performance.

 

The water thudded against the tiles, relentless. He let it run over his hands, the long fingers, the trivial tremor that came not from weakness but from thought. He had spent his life mastering abstraction—numbers, systems, legacy so vast it had lost narrative—but Klapisch had returned him to the material fact of being alone in a body, in time.

 

As the steam thickened, the space lost its edges. Theo thought of Colours of Time, of acting not for now but for what would follow. The water, he recognised, was doing the same thing. It was not cleansing him for the evening. It was preparing his disappearance. Every drop moved on. None stayed.

 

That was why the films had mattered. They had not promised connection. They had dignified distance. They had hinted that to exist alongside another life—unmerged, unresolved—was not failure, but a form of grace.

 

Theo turned the tap off. The sudden lull was absolute.

 

Water slid from his skin and was gone.

 


 

The Bentley idled for a moment longer than necessary.

 

Sebastian did not step out at once. He remained seated, hands resting nonchalantly on his knees, as though awaiting authorisation from something older than habit. The street outside was still—not empty, but settled. A single window glowed across the way. Somewhere, someone else was also not yet finished with the evening.

 

It came to him then—not as revelation, but as recognition—that belonging was never conferred by place or lineage or even by love. It arrived askance. It was granted in intervals: in collective calms, in quarters borrowed for a period, in conversations that did not conclude but simply learned when to stop.

 

Cédric Klapisch, gently and without pageant, had taught them all the same lesson: That life is constituted not of arrivals, but of crossings. That meaning resides not in resolution, but in adjacency. And that the future, like art, watches us even when we pretend it does not.

 

Sebastian understood now that this watchfulness was not surveillance but care. The future did not demand greatness of him. It required only attention—an ethics of noticing, a willingness to remain present as time passed through him rather than over him.

 

Elsewhere, Theo stood by the open window, his body cooling, the city breathing back into the amplitude. The night air touched his skin with unremarkable kindness. He felt, for the first time in a long while, neither alone nor accompanied, but properly situated—one life among many, streaming coequal, held together by nothing more fragile or more durable than closeness.

 

He thought of the people he would never meet, whose lives would nonetheless brush his own through shared films, shared streets, shared hours lived honourably. The thought did not diminish him. It steadied him.

 

Belonging, he realised, was not being known completely. It was being held incompletely, by a world willing to make latitude for unfinished selves.

 

And so the night continued—automobiles moving through lit avenues of masonry, water drying on warm skin, orbits settling into their shapes—each moment passing into the next without ceremony.

 

No conclusions were drawn. None were required.

 

There was only the reticent assurance that somewhere, between scenes, between people, between now and what comes after, they were already home.

 

  



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